Embracing Joy and Peace

As wonderful as it is to be with my family the past several weeks, let me admit that it has been challenging as we adapt to – “being together”. I have literally not gone out except to walk the dog. My son went out one day to “run” and hasn’t since. Whereas my daughter has kept a routine of doing her school work online and exercising. My husband is working – essential services. Being together in a confined space can lead to flaring tempers, as well as general grumpiness from time to time as we adjust to our individual personalities and uniqueness.

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 1 John 4:7

I was personally disappointed in myself this week. I lost my temper and raised my voice the other day. I think the volume resonated throughout my neighbourhood – why? It was for the most stupid thing – a misunderstanding about my daughter not throughly reading one of her teachers’ email.

After the tears, we walked through her teachers’ email to realize she was having difficulties. We email and talked to her teacher via telephone and worked together to resolve the issue.

I felt like such a terrible mom for not being a better role model. I was disappointed in myself for losing my temper. I know that in the midst of my anger I felt the hand of God on me – an inner voice telling me to stop. With tears in my eyes, I held my daughter and told her how much I love her. “I am sorry”, I sobbed.

It’s been a few days since this incident, and I am thankful for the power of God. Through His Holy Spirit, He guides me to reflect, and hence have a deeper understanding of who I am – my shortcomings, and, of forgiveness.

As I was walking the dog this morning, I also thought about the power of love which resides within. There was a beauty this morning as I walked Candy. The sun is bright as winter turns into a nippy spring. There are buds sprouting on bare trees, and it is a wonderment to feel His amazing grace in all around. I thank God for opening my eyes and heart. To see and feel His living creation. There is an understanding that it is only through the living power of the Holy Spirit I have joy and peace.

Moments such as these are Gods’ hands in our lives as He awakens us from our slumber. He wants us to see the beauty beyond the negative emotions and bad deeds of this world. It is Christ living in us through the power of the Holy Spirit:

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

Despite the challenges, disappointments, pain and all the negative that can befall, I need to remember – through God we received joy! Through God we receive peace! Through God, I have the life energy of the Holy Spirit.

I pray that Aleeza, Mathieu, Daniel each receive the power of the Holy Spirit and be energized.

I pray all those around me – my extended family, friends and colleagues, are filled with the Holy Spirit and live with joy! I pray they have peace within their hearts and be energized!

I pray that those in my great community, and my readers feel the blessings of the Holy Spirit as they walk in Christ Jesus and be energized!

Joy and peace in the Holy Spirit!

Amen

Palm Sunday

2019 Easter dinner
Every year Easter was a time we got together with my husband’s family. It was a festive occasion with lots of home cooked goodies, and chocolate for the children.
This year we will celebrate Easter with just the four of us and our online Christian community.

I remember one Sunday when my children were young, we celebrated Palm Sunday with palm leaves. This year all church communities across Canada cannot gather together to rejoice – Jesus is King!

Before we went to bed the night before, I watched with my daughter a post from the 180 Church Kid Zone Ministry:

Palm Sunday story with Paster Dom

There is also a cute and short animation for younger children by Crossroads Kids’ Club:

God’s Story: Palm Sunday

For older teens, there is What’s the Significance of a Triumphant Entry. This video is by Got Questions Ministries. It explore Palm Sunday with more depth.

I’m excited to tune in online today to worship and remember Christ’s triumphant entry into Jerusalem. Even though I am isolated in my home, I look forward to logging online at 9:30. Government laws and the world gone crazy with COVID-19 will not be an obstacle to worship.

Tune in with me at 9:30 am for the 180 Live Church.

Or at 10:30 and 11:30 for the live broadcast from: https://elevationchurch.org/online/

Let us get together and rejoice in Christ Jesus.

God Bless❤️

Thank God For Kids

But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 19:14 | KJV

Your unending love pouring down on me…Daniel and I adopted our two children when they were infants. We were in our 40s. We were not sure about starting a family after 20 years together – the thought of being parents so late in our lives was life changing and daunting! We put our faith and trust in God’s hand, and with a prayerful heart we waited.

I kept a prayer journal during this process. Reading it recently I can honestly say I am embarrassed by the nagging, pestering, and whining – what a pain the the neck I must have sound. I was like the many women in the Bible who didn’t trust God’s plan. Like Eve, Sarah, Hagar, Job’s wife and many others in the BIBLE…our insecurities abound. Doubtful and sometimes mournful:

“Then the Lord said to Abraham, ‘Why did Sarah laugh? Why did she say, ‘Can an old woman like me have a baby?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return about this time next year, and Sarah will have a son,’” (Genesis 18:13-14).

God answers prayers!

As undeserving and as imperfect I was and am – I am thankful!

My promise to God was to bring them up in Christ Jesus. This itself was and is a proven challenge especially our world today. Children meander in a very different world! Their grasp and in your face technology is not to be ignored. As a mom, I’ve embraced this technology to communicate with them. From finding the right Christian atmosphere, to looking for ways to share with my children God’s teachings has been nothing short of challenging!

My gift to my children is this blog. Here I can share with them. I can share some insights about being a mom, along with the living testament of an extremely flawed individual. I can also share the story of my Salvation through the blood of Jesus.

Praise be to God!

Believe it or not this is how I share with them Jesus’ story, and how my life has been impacted by Him.

Every blog post is sent to my children. They read it and in some cases they tell me what typo or grammatical errors I’ve made.

Aleeza was actually insulted I use MeiMei when I refer to her. I told her it was a security precaution, but she wanted me to use her real name ^_^

Aleeza…

…was the Western name we gave – Aliza – was chosen for its’ Hebrew roots. It means “great happiness” and “joy”. Her name is a living testimony of Gods hands in our lives – “great happiness” and “joy”. Hmm, not mentioned there is and will be challenges that comes with being parents. Different age = different issues! The journey is never ending!

Mathieu…

…is the French version from the first book of the New Testament- Matthew. Also with a history that stems back to the Hebrew and the Old Testament – Gift of God:

(Mattityahu)meaning “gift of YAHWEH“, from the roots מַתָּן (mattan)meaning “gift” and יָה (yah) referring to the Hebrew God. Matthew, also called Levi, was one of the twelve apostles. He was a tax collector, and supposedly the author of the first gospel in the New Testament. The name appears in the Old Testament as Mattithiah.

Jesus loves the little children,
All the children of the world.
Red, and yellow, black, and white,
They are precious in His sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world.

Time passes quickly and in a blink of an eye he is a young man. I miss those days when he was a toddler. A young adult – my husband and I encourage him to be autonomous, to make proactive decisions about his goals and walk in life. I pray God walks with him.

Amen

This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine
To show my love

Everywhere I go, I’m gonna let it shine [x3]
I let it shine to show my love

Even in my home, I’m gonna let is shine
I let is shine to show my love

When I see my neighbor coming
I’m gonna let it shine

Amen

We can never give up. Through prayer and walking (sometimes meandering) with the Jesus, I can only hope my children will come to love Him as much as I do.

❤️❤️❤️

Music For The Soul

Toronto with Matt and MeiMei aka Aleeza

While wearing the mom mask, a question which continuously haunts me is, “What kind of legacy will I leave my children?” This thought is even more prevalent today as I look around me – a world in COVID-19 pandemic overdrive.

When I’m dead and gone, what will they remember about me? Do I dare tell them of my many zany stories walking from the left to the right, or of the anguished walks that were oftentimes spiritually rocky? They are my stories of a living God, of a guiding hand, and of a healer.

Who am I? It’s not because of who I am, it’s because of who YOU are, that I can look in the mirror and know who I am. From forever questioning, and finally finding the living hope in Him – Jesus. Out of my angst there is only Him – my Saviour.

When I think about my life, I think of God’s amazing grace. His hands time and time again guiding me back into his embrace – His mercy and unending love abound.

Hence, the one precious thing I want to leave my children when I am dead and gone is my immense love for my Saviour – Jesus. I want to tell them of His love for me and you.

I want my children to know Him more.

I want my children to love Him, to trust Him, and depend on Him as I do!

This compilation of songs is for me, you, us. They are music for the soul. May each of us discover the precious presence of Jesus, and God’s deep love for me, you, us🌷

I love you – Aleeza and Matt❤️here is my compilation of my favourite music for you:

https://music.apple.com/ca/playlist/songs-for-my-soul/pl.u-PDb44Z5tJjq1eX

Amen❤️

Little White Lies…

For we have all sinned, and come short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23

It’s often hard for parents to teach our children right from wrong, and especially hard to teach them from a Christian standpoint. It’s hands on, and oftentimes preparedness armed with the tools God gives us – the BIBLE. Through the BIBLE we are given wisdom and knowledge.

Little white lies…

The other day I noticed a full bag of chips shrunk by half. I casually asked my 13 year old if she had any. Her immediate reply, “No”.

“Who?”

“I don’t know”

It was a small matter, but I repeated the question and got the same response. The issue in my mind was how do I make my daughter recognize that her little lie has consequences. How do I teach her that it’s wrong to lie. How do I guide her to understand that lying however big or small, it’s still a lie and it’s not only wrong, but a sin!

How do I as a mom get her to owe it?

Mom, “MeiMei you are doing bad stuff that makes God sad”.

If we sin, we will go to a bad place when we die.

But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.Revelation 21:8 KJV

Mom asks, “MeiMei, do you think you’ve sin?“

“Hmm, No.”

He came to earth as an infant.

With a calm face, I tell her the story of Jesus. I explain to her how Jesus is God who lived in heaven, but he came down to earth as man (human). He lived for 33 1/2 years without sin. There were certain people who were jealous of Jesus and using fake charges, lied and framed him. They crucified Jesus and then buried Him. Jesus raised himself from the dead. Jesus is now in heaven.

Hence, He was crucified, buried and resurrected.

Do you know why Jesus went through all this bloodiness for?

But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

It’s because of our sin. This prevents us from going to heaven. The only thing that can wash away our sin is the blood of Jesus. This is the only way we can go to heaven.

Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him. Romans 5:9

Only through the blood of Jesus can wash away our sin.

Mom, “Are you sorry for being a sinner?”

“Yes.”

Upon which this mom tells her daughter, “All you have to do is say it to God.”

If we believe and say to God. He will forgive.

Amen!

Remembering to Pray

Out of the depths I call to you, Lord hear my ….

Wow, as I look on the date of my last post, it’s been a long while.

As the world is buckling down with isolation and social distancing – I feel all around me the uncertainty and the anxiety created is also felt by all citizens of this globe.

I discovered this blog: https://www.missionariesofprayer.org/2010/11/power-prayer-e-m-bounds-free-online/

The following is a PDF I found by E M Bound – Power Through Prayer: http://www.ntslibrary.com/PDF%20Books/The%20Necessity%20of%20Prayer%20by%20EM%20Bounds.pdf.

Or

http://www.biblebelievers.com/em_bounds/index.html

With all kinds of restrictions and governmental mandates in place, and as we are forced to stay home – rather than look at all the negative implications that can drag our spirit and soul down, I found that reading can nourish the soul as it draws me closer to GOD.

Why prayer?

Prayer is talking to God.

Taking the time to talk to God!

The past while, I have only given God a quick shout out! I didn’t even realize I wasn’t give God more time. It became a quick nod and a quick word minus the depth. Somehow God has become one of my followers as I send a quick “Instagram” update on my daily “what nots”. The past few months, I have not taken the time to hold a serious conversation with him. Nor have I taken the time to spend with him. I think I’ve spend more time reading daily news feeds than I have the BIBLE. I became a news junkie!

Gods – He who has unconditional love, He who has forgiven us for all our ugly deeds through the blood of His son Jesus, and – WHAT? – I don’t take the time to pray and listen? All I can do is humbly fall upon my knees like a child and say “I’m sorry”. I hope unlike a child, I don’t “forget” and do the same again.

Like a loving parent, God always has a way of reminding us and drawing us back into His arms (fold). Whether through others, chains of events, or like now, a world wide COVID-19 pandemic – God draws us back even though the Churches are forced apart. HE reminds us to draw near to HIM and PRAY. A quick text to God, quick hello, a quick blah blah blah, just doesn’t cut it anymore.

While I’m “forced” to self quarantine at home, I spent my first week observing all the media frenzy about the COVID-19 pandemic, worrying senseless about my high risk Asthma. I also had a frenzied mind set upon disinfecting and maintaining all the protocols as mandated by the government.

By the end of the last week I started to see the hand of God upon this world as I thought back to his teachings in the Bible.

In a world now where the Church cannot congregate, one gets the sense that there is something deeper at play which suppresses all those who know God, and blind all those who don’t know Him from knowing Him.

Hence, I take the time to draw nearer to God. I don’t ask the whys, I can only laid upon him my fears, angsts, and all the negative I feel within as well as all the cheers and joy of his hands in my life. I can only tell HIM I believe in Him, and trust His hand is upon me.

Praise be to God!

Amen!

Quiet Time

Sometimes it takes something drastic to force me to stop and call upon Jesus, and it’s times like these that I have no choice but to stop and listen to Him.  It’s also times like these when I am reminded that He is always there.

I had a severe asthma attack that landed me in emergency.   As my heart was pounding from the high dosage of medication and steroids in ICU,  I looked upwards and thank God for forcing me to take stock of myself and our relationship.

I’ve let the busy din of the everyday get in the way of my quiet time.  My excuses have piled up as I tell myself that as my children head into their teenager years, more time is required to oversee and keep one eye on their homework, friends and social circle, and another on their activities online especially their social media usage.  Yeah, social media – of which snapchat and Instagram rules.   I find myself immersing into their culture, and before I know it, I have put Jesus onto the back burner – last.

Romans 12:2 “Do not be conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is –  his good, pleasing and perfect will.“

Thank you for your nudges,  and for moving me to meditate upon your words.  Thank you for helping me articulate it throught this platform to blog about it as I let my thoughts flow into words. 

Job 37:14  (NIV) “Listen to this, Job; stop and consider God’s wonders.”

Praise be to God!

Happy 15th Birthday Son!

14 years and 5 months ago, my husband and I received the most precious gift from God – a bundle of joy from South Korea.

At 42, I a was a mom! Those tumultuous and self centered years of meandering through life, faded into the background as I held him in my arms.

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We had prepared ourselves with many self help books for newbie parents. Resourceful guides to help us through the first 24 months of our son’s developmental progress. Nothing prepared me for the act of selflessness that comes with caring for an infant(s) – and although I thought I was prepared to be a new mom – I wasn’t.  It was humbling.

We had given up hope of having children – it was just going to be the two of us, until that summer when my sister and her husband entrusted Dan and I with the care of their two young children while they went on vacation. It was a life changing experience.  We discovered the joy of children, and imagined being parents.   We wanted a family – and my biological clock was ticking.  Adoption was the only option for us!

We placed all our hopes in God to fill the hole in our lives. How I must have whined daily and I’m sure I was a pain in the neck as I scribbled away in my prayer journal.

With every stroke of the pen, with every prayer I asked God for a child.    My daily prayers were simple and full of hope.   I even gave God a list of what I wanted in our child.  Oh I can imagine God’s lift eyebrows as I look back on those prayers.

God you are all forgiving, all merciful, and all glorious!!  You have done great thing in my life!
All my hope is in you!

We went through the adoption process in December 2011, and had our application in by March, and our bundle of joy arrived in July 2012.  God’s hand was present throughout the process, and when he arrived at the airport, he was 4 months old.  Surround by family and friends, we welcomed him into our lives.  Our promise to God – to bring him up within His embrace.

Oh there were many challenges of taking care of an infant.   After 21 years together, we went through a period of adjustment.   Each day saw our love grow deeper as we fell in love with our son.  Living in the moment, we savored and appreciated the new challenges in our lives.   Each day was a learning experience, from being panicky and nervous parents, to watching him pull his first temper tantrum at 24 months, to the tenderness and love as we embraced being parents under God’s hands is precious.

Dear God,

You gave Dan and I what we could handle – both spiritually, and in our lives.  You have taught me many life lessons about being a believer, a mom, a wife, and a teacher.

The joy of being a mom, is also a life long process where each thought, idea, inspiration, goal, ability is examined and made new. Along with trials to my patience, attitude, prejudices, bias, and character flaw mirrored and revealed – You Dear Jesus, guide me towards change.

“Down on my knees again surrendering all…I’m desperate for you…. drench my soul, I hunger for you….”. I Surrender- Hillsong Live Cornerstone

Thank you God for the gift of answered prayer!
Thank you Jesus for guiding me to be the best mom I can be. For showing me daily my flaws and short coming as I interact with my son – with my children.  Thank you for your grace, that with You in me, I can make the effective changes to be an awesome mom. Thank you for always being there to get me back on track when I make a wrong turn ❤