Confessions Of Falling Into My Disorder

I confess that I am a shopaholic. When I give into my weakness, Satan and his evil minions jump at every opportunity to create a divide between God and me.

A good example, is while online shopping, I spent more money than I had anticipated. I reasoned it was a sale too good to miss – after all it’s a “Back to School” sale. I should know better, especially as my own son was prepping for a huge back to school sale at his stores. Well, I fell into the guile’s of advertisement and “deals”.

Recalling afterwards my crazed mind as I put items into my cart and pressed pay, not once but twice, I realized and bemoaned my indulgence into the flesh and prayed seeking God’s forgiveness. Seeking for the strength to turn away from things of this world. Thank goodness our God is merciful.

God has a way of speaking to me that always strikes at my inner core. It results in a deeper understanding of Sacred Scripture:

22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27 “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Fatherknows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.32 “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33 Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Luke 12:22-34

This verse is especially poignant and meaning because it was part of my meditation for the past few weeks. The depth of meaning in it didn’t hit me until I committed the self indulgent deed of falling prey to my own shopping frenzy.

It was only after I’ve fallen to my own vice that I can finally understand Luke 12:22-34.


God is merciful and will continue to guide us to become more aware of the narrow road towards holiness. I am thankful for his teachings, and graceful for the guidance of the Holy Spirit.


Satan and his minion are ever present and waiting to prey on our weaknesses. Vigilance Is the key. I can only battle evil with the help of Jesus. I came across the work of an Exorcist – Fr. Ripperger through the Augustine Institute. Please take the time to watch the following videos. They will help each of us to battle our brokenness with the help of the triune.


More information on the Augustine Institute:

https://www.augustinestudios.org/formed


God Bless and may our beloved Jesus Christ heal our disorders. 💕🙏

The Road Is Narrow

The road to heaven is narrow. The road to heaven is to love Jesus with all my heart, mind, body and spirit. This is proactively to have a sincere relationship with Jesus with all my heart, taking the time to know him, love him, and finally to follow him by doing – God’s will. Doing God’s will is not what I want, but what God wants for me.


Praying for God’s will in my life means picking up the cross of Jesus. For me this means stepping out of my comfort zone to trust and love Jesus, and, to love my neighbours. I am happy and content to exist in my little shell. It’s stress free and easy. Stepping out means I trust in Jesus to lead me along the rocky and narrow road towards heaven – and not hide in the four corners of my comfortable shell.

I am saved by grace, and this means for me to step out and love those around me. It can be a simple smile, a genuine greeting, a helping hand, and above all to love the unloveable.

Yes it’s hard to love our neighbours, and it is only through God’s grace and knowing that Jesus lives in my heart that I can do this. You can also!

Jesus, help me to enter through the narrow door. Guide and lead me to let go of the things in this world and focus just on the cross – to heed your words with a trusting and sincere heart – and to obey you🙏

I pray that each of you come to know Jesus, love him, and take up the cross to follow him. I pray for God’s blessings upon each of us to love our neighbours and ask for their salvation in our prayers, to sincerely love, greet, hugs, and give in good will.

May the light of the Cross in each of us radiate outwards.

Jesus passed through towns and villages,
teaching as he went and making his way to Jerusalem.
Someone asked him,
“Lord, will only a few people be saved?”
He answered them,
“Strive to enter through the narrow gate,
for many, I tell you, will attempt to enter
but will not be strong enough.
After the master of the house has arisen and locked the door,
then will you stand outside knocking and saying,
‘Lord, open the door for us.’
He will say to you in reply,
‘I do not know where you are from.
And you will say,
‘We ate and drank in your company and you taught in our streets.’
Then he will say to you,
‘I do not know where you are from.
Depart from me, all you evildoers!’
And there will be wailing and grinding of teeth
when you see Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob
and all the prophets in the kingdom of God
and you yourselves cast out.
And people will come from the east and the west
and from the north and the south
and will recline at table in the kingdom of God.
For behold, some are last who will be first,
and some are first who will be last.”

Gospel Lk 13:22-30

Father Chris Alar’s homily on the narrow path:


Father Mark Goring on Luke 13:22-30


Ralph Martin, Living As Catholics In Challenging Times:

God Bless 💕🙏

God’s Healing Breath

The past year and a half, has seen me work towards a more balanced spiritual, mental, emotional and physical well-being. None of this would have been possible without a deeper intimacy with Jesus and his divine grace. After becoming depressed and isolated at home during the onset of the Covid Pandemic, my only solace was the Bible. I remember praying for God’s intervention and guidance for healing in my life – to help me find him again, and “to be a stronger me in my own existence”. As I reflect back, Jesus has always been there as he is for each of us. Jesus was simply waiting for me and each of us to invite him into our lives for a deeper relationship.

20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.

Revelations 3:20

Thank you Jesus for the grace to know you more intimately, love you more deeply, and to walk with you more closely.

In fact, through working with a Saint Ignatius Spiritual Director, Art Therapist, and physical exercise, I am now better equip spiritually, emotionally and physically to step back into the ring of life and be the person God meant me to be. That is of course not without the daily challenges that comes with living – but with Jesus in my heart and the foundations of the Catholic faith, I am a stronger me in my own existence.

A psalm of David.

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

Psalm 23

Catholic Prayers For Soul Healing

O’ holy one

I have come before you today who needs your healing hand. Everything is possible in you.

Hold my heart within you, and renew my mind, body, and spirit.

I am lost, but I come to you with grace.

You gave us life, and you also give us the gift of eternal bliss.

Give me the strength to move forward on the path you have made for me.

Guide me towards better health, and give me the wisdom to identify the people you have around me to help me get better.

If you have bad memories, anguish, anxiety, or guilt, a “prayer for soul healing” will address those worries. It also focuses on forgiving the causes of your pain.


Catholic Prayers For Depression

Sometimes the thing we need most in order to heal — or even to think about healing — is some good, restful sleep. This prayer asks Jesus to help you sleep, to free the demons from your thoughts, and to have angels over you while you sleep.

Grand spirit

Thank you for being with me through all the ups and downs of my life and the blessings you have given me, for which I admire and thank you.

You know the disease I’ve been battling for a long time and there’s little that can be done by the medical profession – but believe me, I’m awesome and wonderfully made and you know every part of it is my body. You know exactly why I’ve been sick for so long. I come to you now asking that you will do complete recovery work on my body – whatever is causing this persistent problem. I pray that you, by your mercy, give me the health and strength that I need.

Lead me on the path you have planned for me.


God Bless 🙏💕

A Message For Each Of Us

There’s a saying that the truth will set us free. When I think of all the controlled narratives in our secular world, of cancel culture, of hidden agendas cloaked in the name of Social Justice, how many of us see outside this? Seeing the truth of God sets us free from the chains of Satan’s machinations of lies.

Well, another old saying is “to divide and conquer.” Division or creating a wedge by making a group of people disagree and fight with one another is a sure way to ensure they will not join together against one. One of Satans greatest attributes is his ability to lie and cloak his lies in half truths.

The following video is a must watch by Peter Herbeck. He discusses God’s love for all of us – and uniting in walking away from our potentially dangerous life style. It is to recognize the social malaise and narratives that divide, and to know all are loved by God. God has no borders, and he simply calls us to him.


Love for Enemies (Luke 6:27-36)

27 “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.32 “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them.33 And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. 35 But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. 36 Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

God Bless🙏 💕

The Warning or the Illumination of Conscience

During Covid lockdowns, I was confronted with the state of my own faith when churches literally closed their doors for worship. The advent of Covid lead to a hybrid form of worship as many religious institutions had to go virtual.

Covid was for me a time of reflection and examination of my faith, my walk with Jesus and a chance for me to make a choice – to know Jesus more intimately, love him more deeply and to follow him more closely.

However, given the many Marian apparitions and signs of the time, there will come a time of the Illumination of Conscience. I share this with my readers. It is a topic not really discussed, and in many ways, the church is reluctant to discuss it. However, it is an important revelation that needs to be discussed and told especially as we look at the signs of our time.


There is much discussion about the Illumination of Conscience. I repost the following article as it explains it more clearly than I could:

The Warning or the Illumination of Conscience 

Written by Alain Pilote on Saturday, 01 May 2021. Posted in Apparitions

Everyone will see the state of their soul as God sees it 

According to foretold prophecy, the Illumination of Conscience, or the Warning, will be an experience in which every person on earth except small children will be allowed by God to see the condition of their soul as well as their eternal destination if they were to die that day. During the Illumination of Conscience, in what will be the greatest act of His mercy, God will also convince us that He does indeed exist, and that He wants our salvation.

According to different sources, the event will be preceded by the appearance in the sky of the Cross which will be visible to all mankind.

The Catechism of the Catholic Church (n. 1021 and 1022), describes the Particular Judgement, an encounter at the end of the earthly life of each human being.

(1021) “Death puts an end to human life as the time open to either accepting or rejecting the divine grace manifested in Christ. The New Testament speaks of judgment primarily in its aspect of the final encounter with Christ in his second coming, but also repeatedly affirms that each will be rewarded immediately after death in accordance with his works and faith. The parable of the poor man Lazarus and the words of Christ on the cross to the good thief, as well as other New Testament texts speak of a final destiny of the soul–a destiny which can be different for some and for others.

(1022) “Each man receives his eternal retribution in his immortal soul at the very moment of his death, in a particular judgment that refers his life to Christ: either entrance into the blessedness of heaven, through a purification or immediately –or immediate and everlasting damnation. At the evening of life, we shall be judged on our love.” (St. John of the Cross)

The Illumination of Conscience was described by mystics and saints in recent Church history as God’s gracious opportunity for repentence and salvation before the Final Judgement and independent of each person’s Particular Judgement.

Saint Edmund Campion

The English martyr, St. Edmund Campion (1540-1581), appears to have been the first Catholic saint to refer to a “great day of change”. The English charged Campion with sedition, saying he threatened England with invasion by the King of Spain in order to reestablish Catholicism as the national religion. St. Edmund’s defense was that he was not threatening invasion but was referring to “a great day wherein the terrible Judge should reveal all men’s consciences and try every man of each kind of religion. This is the day of change, this is the Great Day which I threatened, comfortable to the well-being and terrible to all heretics.” (St. Edmund Campion, Cobett’s Complete Collection of State Trials, Vol. I, p. 1063).

Saint Faustina Kowalska

Saint Faustina Kowalska

In her Diary, where she transcribed her mystical dialogues with Jesus, the Polish nun, St. Faustina Kowalska (1905-1938) reported that she experienced an Illumination of Conscience.

“Once I was summoned to the judgment [seat] of God. I stood alone before the Lord. Jesus appeared such as we know him during his Passion. After a moment, his wounds disappeared except for five, those in his hands, his feet and his side. Suddenly I saw the complete condition of my soul as God sees it. I could clearly see all that is displeasing to God. I did not know that even the smallest transgressions will have to be accounted for.” (Diary, 36).

Jesus said to St. Faustina: “Write this: before I come as the Just Judge, I come as the King of Mercy. Before the day of justice arrives, this sign in the sky will be given to mankind. All light in the heavens will be extinguished, and there will be great darkness over the whole earth. Then the sign of the Cross will be seen in the sky, and from the holes where the hands and the feet of the Savior were nailed will come forth a brilliant light, which will illuminate the Earth for a period of time. This will take place shortly before the last day” (Diary, 83).

Heede, Germany

In 1945, young Grete Ganseforth, blessed with the stigmata, was one of the witnesses of apparitions in Heede, Germany. She was said to receive words from Christ which referred to a “small judgment”.

“Humanity has not listened to My holy Mother, revealed at Fatima to exhort her to do penance. So I will warn the world myself… I am all ready. The terra will shake and be shaken. It will be terrible: a small judgment! But don’t be afraid. I am with you. You will rejoice and thank Me. Those who are waiting for Me have My help, My grace, My love. But for those who are not in a state of grace, it will be frightening… I will make myself known to men. Every soul will recognize Me as its God. I come! I am at the door. The earth will shake and moan.”

At the start of the apparitions, the Bishop of Osnabrück appointed a new pastor who declared in a diocesan bulletin the supernatural character of the events in Heede. There is “undeniable evidence of the seriousness and the authenticity of these events”. In 1959, after examining the facts, the Vicariate of Osnabrück, in a letter to the clergy of the diocese, confirmed the validity of the apparitions and their supernatural origin.

Garabandal

Conchita Gonzalez

Conchita in 1965

Apparitions at Garabandal, Spain (1961-1965) also prophesied a Warning. In a letter dated June 2, 1965, Conchita Gonzalez, the oldest of Garabandal’s four seers, wrote: “Before the miracle, the Virgin told me on January 1, 1965, there will be a warning that the world make amends. This Warning, like the Punishment, is very dreadful for the good and for the bad: for the good to bring them closer to God, for the bad to warn them that the end of time is coming and that these are the last warnings… It will not cause death by itself, but it is possible that some die of it so the emotion will be intense. Death would be a thousand times better. We will see that this Warning comes from God… each human being will therefore see the ugliness of his sins and their participation in the Passion of Christ.”

Don Stefano Gobbi

Don Stefano Gobbi

Forty-eight years following the prophecy of Grete Ganseforth, in 1988, a locution was received by Don Stefano Gobbi on Pentecost Sunday at Heede, Germany. The term “small judgment” was used. The Virgin Mary said: “The Holy Spirit will come to establish the glorious reign of Christ and it will be a reign of grace, of holiness, of love, of justice and of peace. With His divine love, He will open the doors of hearts and illuminate all consciences. Every person will see himself in the burning fire of divine truth. It will be like a judgment in miniature. And then Jesus Christ will bring His glorious reign in the world.”

Sulema Gomez

Sulema Gomez

The Warning was also revealed to Sulema Gomez, born in 1954, in El Salvador. For more than 30 years, she has lived in Canada with her husband and their two children, and has received messages from heaven since 1991. She is followed by two priests who act as spiritual directors. Here is Jesus’message on August 28, 2012:

“What will the Illumination of Conscience look like? It is a direct intervention of God, it is a purification, the first sign for all that your time is drawing to a close, that is to say the end of life as it is now. This event is a unique moment in the history of mankind. A deafening noise will be heard, and the luminous Cross will shine in the sky. It will extend from east to west to announce the proximity of the Illumination of Conscience. As soon as you see the sky darken, get down on your knees, rosary in hand, and pray, pray, pray, because everything will happen very quickly. The day will become night. As in Fatima, the sun will turn and it will go out for three hours; the moon will darken and there will be great phenomena all over the earth!

“The whole world will be turned upside down, people will believe that the end of the world has come. Fear will be dependent on the sins committed by each, the greatest destruction will be manifested in hearts. Each will live a mystical experience by which he will be able to see his state of mind in the light of divine justice, similar to the grace granted to Saul of Tarsus who was penetrated by this light. Paul obeyed the warning I gave him, he repented and became the right disciple, the apostle of the Gentiles.

“When it occurs, everything will stop, my children. It will be like fire, but it will not burn your flesh; however, you will feel it inside and out. The Holy Spirit will come as a heavenly dew of grace and fire which will renew the whole world; then your sins will be exposed to you, the good you neglected to do and the bad you have done. He will bring to light what is hidden in the darkness and he will reveal the secret intentions, for nothing will be hidden any more, not to make you suffer, but rather out of love and mercy; you will suffer because of your unconfessed sins.

“Do you understand My insistence on showing you why you have to go to the Sacrament of Penance to be ready? Otherwise, you will experience the pain of purgatory or hell. You will all see it whether you like it or not. It will be the greatest gesture of My mercy. I will give everyone one last chance.

“And, at this time, each one will be able to free himself from all his sins by going to the Sacrament of Pardon with a great repentance and the desire not to offend God any more, by rectifying his behavior, by changing his habits; or else, drag his sins with him to damnation by refusing to meet Me in the person of the priest. I will forgive everything, but you will have to repent; I will accept your return to My Sacred Heart, but you will have to come back to Me on your own.

“The outpouring of the Holy Spirit will be as strong and powerful, after the Warning, as it was at the time of the first Pentecost. What will manifest will be so great that there has never been anything like it since the world began! This event will increase your faith, it will help you draw closer to Me, it will prepare humanity to receive the messages of the Gospel.

“Why this event? Because without the knowledge of your sins, you will not be able to understand how much you need Me and My forgiveness. Do not fear, My children, those who believe in God and in My most holy Mother, those who will recognize that this comes from God, will be protected. Remember, those who will abide in My grace will have nothing to fear, nothing My children.

“Recite the Rosary, this is very important, recite the Rosary of Mercy, for I attach great graces to it. If I have come this evening to describe to you what the Illumination of Conscience, also known as the Warning, will look like, it is not to frighten you and make you lose your peace, no My children, no. It is to allow you to prepare yourselves through prayer, adoration and the sacraments, to remain in a state of grace, in this heart to heart with Me, your God, to remain safe from all danger in My Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of My most holy Mother, the Immaculate Conception.

“Prepare yourselves, my children, because your eyes will see events that no eye has ever seen before. The time is very short. Do not be afraid, be in joy, before I come as judge, I will come as King of Mercy, for you, My children of light, My little idyllic remnant that I love so much. I am close, I will never give up Mine, you, My loves. Be vigilant, do not let yourselves be distracted, “keep your lamps alight” (Lk. 12:35).

“When the Cross appears in the sky, it will be the sign of My return in glory, because I will come with it to establish my glorious reign in the world. It will be the door that opens the tomb in which lies humanity, to lead it into the Kingdom of the divine will.

“At the same time, there will be great anguish, great pain at not having received My messages and those of My Mother in time. Then it will be too late for those who will not be in a state of grace to repent, convert and do penance. Peoples of the earth, worship the Lord for He is coming! Take heart, do not fear, here comes your God! When you least expect it, the Warning will come, don’t doubt it, and you will see my Cross in heaven. What I say, I do. Be blessed in the name of the Father, in the name of the Son, and in the name of the Holy Spirit. Amen, hallelujah.”

In a message given on February 19, 2011, Jesus said to Sulema: “The days go by and people do not want to prepare to purify the state of their souls. They continue to live as if nothing was going to happen, but, in truth, I tell you my child: the day of the Illumination of Conscience is fast approaching! It will come like a thief (Rev. 3:3). As in Noah’s time (Gn. 7) people continue to drink, eat, feast without taking Us seriously, without taking the time to try to be in a state of grace, without taking the time to put themselves in service attire (Lk. 12: 35) so that the Lord and their God may find them with their lamps well lit and with a good supply of the oil of faith.”

On May 21, 2011, Mary said to Sulema: “Like a good mother, I want to prepare you to live this great event of the Illumination of Consciences in peace, in surrender to the Divine Will. It will be a movement of love and mercy where all the children of the earth must enter to experience this moment, by the power of the Holy Spirit. Your hearts must open to welcome the necessary graces, without which you will be unable to live this supernatural experience well. For your souls will be in the presence of the glory, the majesty, the omnipotence of God the Son who comes to show you the state of your lives, to show you where your sins have led you. Then everyone will know where to go.”

After reading about the Warning, do you know what you must do? Go to the confessional to be freed from the chains of sin and restore a state of grace and friendship with God! Do not risk separation from Him for eternity if physical death strikes. Whether or not one is vaccinated against the coronavirus, or not, this great event will happen to each human being one day!


There is time – to get our faith in order and on solid grounds with Jesus. Please take the time to pray to Jesus and ask for his mercy and forgiveness.

God Bless 🙏💕

THE SURRENDER NOVENA

Day 1

Jesus to the soul: Why do you confuse yourselves by worrying? Leave the care of your affairs to Me and everything will be peaceful. I say to you in truth that every act of true, blind, complete surrender to Me produces the effect that you desire and resolves all difficult situations.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 2

Jesus to the soul: Surrender to Me does not mean to fret, to be upset, or to lose hope, nor does it mean offering to Me a worried prayer asking Me to follow you and change your worry into prayer. It is against this surrender, deeply against it, to worry, to be nervous and to desire to think about the consequences of anything. It is like the confusion that children feel when they ask their mother to see to their needs, and then try to take care of those needs for themselves so that their childlike efforts get in their mother’s way. Surrender means to placidly close the eyes of the soul, to turn away from thoughts of tribulation and to put yourself in My care, so that only I act; saying, “You take care of it.”

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 3

Jesus to the soul: How many things I do when the soul, in so much spiritual and material need turns to Me, looks at Me and says to Me; “You take care of it, then close its eyes and rests.” In pain you pray for Me to act, but that I act in the way you want. You do not turn to Me; instead, you want Me to adapt to your ideas. You are not sick people who ask the doctor to cure you, but rather sick people who tell the doctor how to. So do not act this way, but pray as I taught you in the Our Father: Hallowed be Thy Name, that is, be glorified in my need. Thy kingdom come, that is, let all that is in us and in the world be in accord with Your kingdom. Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven, that is, in our need, decide as You see fit for our temporal and eternal life. If you say to Me truly: Thy will be done, which is the same as saying: You take care of it. I will intervene with all My omnipotence, and I will resolve the most difficult situations.

 O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 4

Jesus to the soul: Do you see evil growing instead of weakening? Do not worry; close your eyes and say to Me with faith: “Thy will be done, You take care of it.” I say to you that I will take care of it, and that I will intervene as does a doctor; and I will accomplish miracles when they are needed. Do you see that the sick person is getting worse? Do not be upset, but close your eyes and say, “You take care of it.” I say to you that I will take care of it, and that there is no medicine more powerful than My loving intervention. By My love, I promise this to you.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 5

Jesus to the soul: And when I must lead you on a path different from the one you see, I will prepare you; I will carry you in My arms; I will let you find yourself, like children who have fallen asleep in their mothers’ arms, on the other bank of the river. What troubles you and hurts you immensely are your reason, your thoughts and worry, and your desire at all costs to deal with what afflicts you.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 6

Jesus to the soul: You are sleepless; you want to judge everything, direct everything and see to everything and you surrender to human strength, or worse—to men themselves, trusting in their intervention; this is what hinders My words and My views. Oh how much I wish from you this surrender, to help you; and how I suffer when I see you so agitated! Satan tries to do exactly this: to agitate you and to remove you from My protection and to throw you into the jaws of human initiative. So, trust only in Me, rest in Me, surrender to Me in everything.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 7

Jesus to the soul: I perform miracles in proportion to your full surrender to Me and to your not thinking of yourselves. I sow treasure troves of graces when you are in the deepest poverty. No person of reason, no thinker, has ever performed miracles, not even among the saints. He does divine works whosoever surrenders to God. So don’t think about it any more, because your mind is acute and for you it is very hard to see evil and to trust in Me and to not think of yourself. Do this for all your needs; do this all of you and you will see great continual silent miracles. I will take care of things, I promise this to you.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 8

Jesus to the soul: Close your eyes and let yourself be carried away on the flowing current of My grace; close your eyes and do not think of the present, turning your thoughts away from the future just as you would from temptation. Repose in Me, believing in My goodness, and I promise you by My love that if you say, “You take care of it.” I will take care of it all; I will console you, liberate you and guide you.

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)

Day 9

Jesus to the soul: Pray always in readiness to surrender, and you will receive from it great peace and great rewards, even when I confer on you the grace of immolation, of repentance and of love. Then what does suffering matter? It seems impossible to you? Close your eyes and say with all your soul, “Jesus, you take care of it.” Do not be afraid, I will take care of things and you will bless My name by humbling yourself. A thousand prayers cannot equal one single act of surrender, remember this well. There is no novena more effective than this:

O Jesus, I surrender myself to You, take care of everything! (10 times)


About the Surrender Novena

The novena was given to Fr. Dolindo Ruotolo by Jesus, who had extraordinary communications with Jesus throughout his life. He led a life totally devoted to God and our Blessed and Holy Mother Mary. He suffered tremendously throughout his life and in his humility, was able to hear the words of God. (From: https://healingheartofjesus.com/2019/01/03/the-surrender-novena/ )

To trust, sounds so easy to do, but to surrender oneself to Christ is a journey in humility and emptying of self . I share this prayer for those like me. It has been hard to empty myself in total surrender to Jesus. I am praying this prayer because it pinpoints sincerely all the challenges and fears I need to empty out to embrace Christ in total surrender:

From https://www.ourcatholicprayers.com/surrender-novena.html

It has been said indeed that it is easier to believe in God than to trust in Him. Yet without some level of trust, that belief itself can decay, much like the earthly treasures our Lord warned us against coveting! (Matt 6:19)


God Bless 💕🙏

Food For Thought

I have to admit there was a time I use to acted rashly without thinking it through. In fact, my actions often had consequences. Afterwards, I would feel remorseful and terrible for acting without thinking it through. It created a negative environment that always resulted in a heartfelt apology from me.

There was a lot for me to learn about anger management, and it was only when I humbled myself and sought Jesus’ help that I was able to let go of my impulses and think things through.

Through scripture, prayer and reflection, I now have a deeper understanding of taking the time to find a balance, to look at the whole, and think it through before reacting. Our Blessed Mother is our role model as she reflects on God’s words, teachings, and the situation – pondering.

“[Mary] does not remain locked in her initial troubled state at the proximity of God in his angel, but she seeks to understand. So Mary appears as a fearless woman, one who remains composed even in the presence of something utterly unprecedented. At the same time she stands before us as a woman of great interiority, who holds heart and mind in harmony and seeks to understand the context, the overall significance of God’s message. In this way, she becomes an image of the Church as she considers the word of God, tries to understand it in its entirety and guards in her memory the things that have been given to her.”
—Pope Benedict XVI, p. 33


The above quote is from: Jesus of Nazareth the Infancy Narratives by Pope Benedict XVI.

A free online PDF is available:

https://www.pdfdrive.com/jesus-of-nazareth-the-infancy-narratives-e187821768.html


God Bless 🙏💕

Good Spirit and Evil Spirit

Satan works very hard to create a wedge in our relationship with God. God created us out of love, and He created us in his own likeness. One of the essences of this is we are meant to have a deep relationship with our Almighty Father. Satan has nothing except intense jealous for us. Satan has since the beginning used his tricks to endanger and sever this relationship. He was successful in the Fall of our first parents – Adam and Eve.

God wants us to continue to grow in faith, hope and love. He desires us to know his son Jesus, more deeply and intimately. Satan on the other hand, works hard to lead us off course and fall out of step with Christ. As we grow in spiritual life, Satan becomes more insistent in his attacks and tactics. Sometimes, his attacks are so subtle, it requires our ability to discern if it is indeed good or evil:

It is characteristic of God and his angels, by the motions they cause, to give genuine happiness and spiritual joy, and thereby to banish any sadness and turmoil induced by the enemy. It is characteristic of the enemy to fight against this happiness and spiritual consolation, by using specious reasonings, subtleties, and persistent deceits (Spiritual Exercise 329)


Hence, we must never stop praying, for it is our souls calling to God. With time and experience, we learn to “follow the lead of the good spirit and, conversely, to resist acting on the movement of the evil spirit” (The Ignatian Adventure, pg. 148)


Gospel Mt 26:14-25

The Betrayal by Judas.

14 Then one of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests15 and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?” They paid him thirty pieces of silver, 16 and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over.

Preparations for the Passover.

17 On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, the disciples approached Jesus and said, “Where do you want us to prepare for you to eat the Passover?” 18 He said, “Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, ‘The teacher says, “My appointed time draws near; in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.”’” 19 The disciples then did as Jesus had ordered, and prepared the Passover.

The Betrayer.

20 When it was evening, he reclined at table with the Twelve. 21 And while they were eating, he said, “Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.” 22 Deeply distressed at this, they began to say to him one after another, “Surely it is not I, Lord?” 23 He said in reply, “He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will betray me. 24 The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed. It would be better for that man if he had never been born.” 25 Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” He answered, “You have said so.”


God Bless 💖