Finding that balance that only God can give me is finding time for prayer. Why pray? Pray puts me before the divine light of God, and it is only in him with the Holy Spirit moving in me that I can find healing from my own depraved desires and obsessions. Without Jesus as my role model, and the spirit of his guidance, I would have long ago been sucked into the darkness that seduces my soul.
I can understand the trials many saints have gone through especially when their words can touch the core of my being. In An Introduction To The Devout Life – St. Francis de Sales, (p. 61) writes:
“Prayer brings our mind into the brightness of divine light, and exposes our will to the warmth of divine love. Nothing else can so purge our mind from its ignorance, and our will from its depraved affections. It is a blessed fountain which, as it flows, revives our good desires and causes them to bring forth fruit, washes away the stains of infirmity from our soul, and calms the passions of our hearts.”
“The best lay plans often goes astray,” and thank God for never failing me. A crazy few days and last minute family chaos, son and car issues, rescheduling and the mores, I thank God for His love of each and everyone of us.
God is consistent and never fails us:
8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and for ever. Hebrews 13:8 RSCV
4 …God, who is rich in mercy, out of the great love with which he loved us, Ephesians 2:4 RSCV
Wow, I never pictured myself the bride walking towards Jesus (the groom) in the Holy Eucharist. I will forever have this imagine in my mind when I attend mass. Father Chris’ homily today is truly God speaking to me (and you) today!
God’s Divine Mercy Sunday completes the Easter Octave, and it’s His gift for all of us – to come before Him and to say – Jesus, I am sorry for my sins. I ask for your grace of forgiveness.
Father Chris’ homily is enlightening and inspirational. It is much needed spiritual nourishment for my soul. He explains clearly the meaning of God’s Divine Mercy, and the church (me and each of us) the bride:
It is a solemn meditation and a special time for each of us to focus and celebrate God’s Divine Mercy. In the readings of the 2 day of the Easter Octave, the Gospel (Matthew 28:8-15) amplifies God’s Divine Mercy – that no matter how dubious or dark our past may be, we have been given the gift of Christ’s blood – and – forgiven. Our sinful stains washed away so that we may begin a new life in Christ. Alleluia!
When we imagine ourselves in front of the tomb, scared yet anxious, and then perplexed when we see the rock that sealed the tomb gone, we run in. Where is Christ’s body? The body of Jesus is gone.
I think of myself – a sinner – given the grace to stand in the empty tomb making this discovery. The first thing I do is run and look to tell others, but I am stopped when I see Jesus walking towards me. He tells me not to be afraid. I see the wounds still raw in his hands and feet. I am astounded and joyous. Jesus tells me to tell his disciples to meet Him in Galilee. I run to claim the good news. Jesus has risen!
Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went away quickly from the tomb, fearful yet overjoyed, and ran to announce the news to his disciples. And behold, Jesus met them on their way and greeted them. They approached, embraced his feet, and did him homage. Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid. Go tell my brothers to go to Galilee, and there they will see me.”
While they were going, some of the guard went into the city and told the chief priests all that had happened. The chief priests assembled with the elders and took counsel; then they gave a large sum of money to the soldiers, telling them, “You are to say, ‘His disciples came by night and stole him while we were asleep.’ And if this gets to the ears of the governor, we will satisfy him and keep you out of trouble.” The soldiers took the money and did as they were instructed. And this story has circulated among the Jews to the present day.
It’s been a heartfelt and spiritual journey this week reflecting on Jesus Christ’s last days before his crucifixion. I feel there is a sadness in Christ knowing that Judas was seduced by Satan and betrayed him for 30 pieces of silver.
The king takes the role of servant. There is also a great sense of humbleness and humility in our beloved Christ washing the feet of his disciples.
In the Gospel, Matthew 20:28, Jesus came “not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.” Jesus taking a towel and basin expresses His deep humbleness and it foreshadowed His ultimate act of humility and love on the cross – and the washing away our sins.
Before the feast of Passover, Jesus knew that his hour had come to pass from this world to the Father. He loved his own in the world and he loved them to the end. The devil had already induced Judas, son of Simon the Iscariot, to hand him over. So, during supper, fully aware that the Father had put everything into his power and that he had come from God and was returning to God, he rose from supper and took off his outer garments. He took a towel and tied it around his waist. Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and dry them with the towel around his waist. He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Master, are you going to wash my feet?” Jesus answered and said to him, “What I am doing, you do not understand now, but you will understand later.” Peter said to him, “You will never wash my feet.” Jesus answered him, “Unless I wash you, you will have no inheritance with me.” Simon Peter said to him, “Master, then not only my feet, but my hands and head as well.” Jesus said to him, “Whoever has bathed has no need except to have his feet washed, for he is clean all over; so you are clean, but not all.” For he knew who would betray him; for this reason, he said, “Not all of you are clean.”
So when he had washed their feet and put his garments back on and reclined at table again, he said to them, “Do you realize what I have done for you? You call me ‘teacher’ and ‘master,’ and rightly so, for indeed I am. If I, therefore, the master and teacher, have washed your feet, you ought to wash one another’s feet. I have given you a model to follow, so that as I have done for you, you should also do.”
Satan works very hard to create a wedge in our relationship with God. God created us out of love, and He created us in his own likeness. One of the essences of this is we are meant to have a deep relationship with our Almighty Father. Satan has nothing except intense jealous for us. Satan has since the beginning used his tricks to endanger and sever this relationship. He was successful in the Fall of our first parents – Adam and Eve.
God wants us to continue to grow in faith, hope and love. He desires us to know his son Jesus, more deeply and intimately. Satan on the other hand, works hard to lead us off course and fall out of step with Christ. As we grow in spiritual life, Satan becomes more insistent in his attacks and tactics. Sometimes, his attacks are so subtle, it requires our ability to discern if it is indeed good or evil:
It is characteristic of God and his angels, by the motions they cause, to give genuine happiness and spiritual joy, and thereby to banish any sadness and turmoil induced by the enemy. It is characteristic of the enemy to fight against this happiness and spiritual consolation, by using specious reasonings, subtleties, and persistent deceits (Spiritual Exercise 329)
Hence, we must never stop praying, for it is our souls calling to God. With time and experience, we learn to “follow the lead of the good spirit and, conversely, to resist acting on the movement of the evil spirit” (The Ignatian Adventure, pg. 148)
14 Then one of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests15 and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?” They paid him thirty pieces of silver, 16 and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over.
Preparations for the Passover.
17 On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, the disciples approached Jesus and said, “Where do you want us to prepare for you to eat the Passover?” 18 He said, “Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, ‘The teacher says, “My appointed time draws near; in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.”’” 19 The disciples then did as Jesus had ordered, and prepared the Passover.
20 When it was evening, he reclined at table with the Twelve. 21 And while they were eating, he said, “Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.” 22 Deeply distressed at this, they began to say to him one after another, “Surely it is not I, Lord?” 23 He said in reply, “He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will betray me. 24 The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed. It would be better for that man if he had never been born.” 25 Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” He answered, “You have said so.”