What do we do when there’s nothing we can do?

It’s official….High School for my daughter and son restarts in September.  Today my daughter went to her high school and  collected all her binders, shoes (2+), and all her “junk” (What? 3 bottles of body spray? Really?) from her locker.    My son was still in bed!

Being at home during the COVID-19 pandemic, routines have been a bit off for my children. The tiger mom in me has been lenient. I only ask each child make their own schedule.  The only demand I have comes from Jordan B. Peterson’s 12 Rules for Life An Antidote for Chaos – 1. Make your bed!

I’ve got to say there are many benefits to being a “tiger mom” (coughs, coughs, OK it means I am pretty strict!). My daughter sets aside 6 hours daily to focus on her studies using zoom and other online platform supplied by her school.  She is able to organize and schedule in time for breaks, snacks and working out. My son on the other hand is now a young adult and stays up till the wee hours.  I personally don’t mind his nocturne habits as long as all his school work is done.  As long as he maintains his standards of excellence, I basically don’t need to supervise his study time.

On the weekends they are free to relax and chill, but my favorite time is Sunday morning. We watch an online Sunday Church Service together, and then I cook brunch for the family. These are precious moments for me during our quarantine.

What can we do when there’s nothing we can do about it?

We are all living with some sense of anxiety, challenges and financial fall back. That’s a given!

My sister sent the family a link this morning – How to Persevere in Tough Times by Andy Stanley.


It reminds us to make a conscious paradigm shift, and to embrace the trials we have with an attitude of faith.   Yes, our faith in God will be tested, and if we are afraid  – we pray and ask God for wisdom.  Are we strong enough to endure?  I for one can honestly say I can stand strong in the face of chaos only because I know that the Hand of God rests upon me.

1. Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, 2. knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 5. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

5. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. James 1: 1-5 

My personal to do list during COVID-19 stems from not wanting to waste time during my quarantine.   My goal is spiritual growth and reflection upon the grace of God in my life. It’s of trusting God, and stepping outside of my comfort zone. My goal is to motivate my children to want to know more about God. It’s to share the story of Jesus – let them who have ears – hear. I want to share my love for Him. I want to be a living example of someone who lives in with the Holy Spirit in me. Finally, I want them to live mindfully and embrace the daily nuances big or small.

Within all the unknowns around the COVID-19, it is my time to time to “persevere” and trust in God to guide me/us. It is also for me/us to ask for wisdom to think critically and sheive make the right choices.

Let us start each day with a time of silence.  It’s not hard to take 5 to 6 minutes out of our day in quiet prayer with God. 

I pray for the perseverance to to endure.  I pray that my faith grows stronger.  I will stay with God and not quit!

13.Here is something I am still sure of.
    I will see the Lord’s goodness
    while I’m still alive.
14.Wait for the Lord.
    Be strong and don’t lose hope.
    Wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:13-14

I will stay with God, I will not quit!

I will stay with God, I will not quit!

I will stay with God, I will not quit!

I pray that each of you will do the same:

Stay with God, and don’t quit❤️



There is Peace in God’s Love

The pass few days I’ve been feeling a little down. Sometimes it’s hard to express or articulate the whys. I feel the weight of the world come down on me as I watch world events around me fall into place – like pieces on a chess board – sounding the beginning of the coming rapture and tribulation.

It’s hard for me to switch off as the researcher side of me see – the hermeneutics and intricacies of events is laid out and unfolding in front of me.

It is times like these I need to withdraw and pray. It is times like these I want silence. I must draw closer to God and trust in His will and prepare within myself Spiritually for what’s to come.

Believe in God.

Trust in God.

Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. (John 14:1-3)

It’s also a topic most Christians avoid and don’t talk about. It is especially a hard to explain to my own children and with those who have just come to know Christ.

Like a friend recently expressed: But I am petrified about this topic.. lol 😭😭

“Yeah so am I,” I think to myself

There is actually very few I can talk to about this. As it’s a topic that requires deep trust in God. In fact it’s about trusting God and knowing my own fears and anxieties. I thank my brother for being there for me to cry and sob. Daily miracles is God putting people in our path to comfort us, to encourage us, and to guide us, and, in turn He puts those in front of us to do the same. He alights our Spiritual growth and opens our eyes to the area in our lives that needs growth. He brings others to our path to help and guide.

He moves us to pray!

It is not for me to carry the weight of the world. It is for me to communicate with God, and to ask Jesus to take the burden off of me. As much as I feel the wrath of God upon the world, and as I am quarantined for the 7th week of the COVID-19 pandemic, I thank my Lord God for his shield of protection over my family here and in Toronto. I thank Him for protecting my friends, neighbours, colleagues in my sphere.

Each day in prayer there is someone who comes to mind for me to prayer for.

Moreover I understand how important it is to keep in prayer with God. He is calling me to draw nearer to Him. To embrace Him with all of myself.

I pray for my children who will be the next generation in a world with which the seduction of evil (Satan) permeates every facets of their lives – through the media, news, entertainment and propaganda towards materialism – towards a leftist ideology.

It is saturating our world – hence it is weighted upon me to pray for the hand of God to continue to guide my children to walk in the light. Just as it’s important for me, their mom, to guide them in Gods words:

But godliness with contentmentis great gain. 1 Timothy 6:6

To understand that:

7. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.

8. And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.

9. But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition.

10. For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. 1 Timothy 6:7-10

I pray for my children to always put God first in their hearts and mind. To not put the desires of this world first. To teach my children to think critically, and to discern that the actions they take is not with the wrong intent.

The last two days have been sunny out. I took my dog out for walks. I am spending time outdoors in quiet reflection.

16. We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. 17. By this, love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; because as He is, so also are we in this world. 1 John 16-17

I thank you God for your love, and for the confidence we have in your love. Your love gives me the confidence to be at peace. I lift up my hands on thanksgiving❤️Amen

Embracing Joy and Peace

As wonderful as it is to be with my family the past several weeks, let me admit that it has been challenging as we adapt to – “being together”. I have literally not gone out except to walk the dog. My son went out one day to “run” and hasn’t since. Whereas my daughter has kept a routine of doing her school work online and exercising. My husband is working – essential services. Being together in a confined space can lead to flaring tempers, as well as general grumpiness from time to time as we adjust to our individual personalities and uniqueness.

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 1 John 4:7

I was personally disappointed in myself this week. I lost my temper and raised my voice the other day. I think the volume resonated throughout my neighbourhood – why? It was for the most stupid thing – a misunderstanding about my daughter not throughly reading one of her teachers’ email.

After the tears, we walked through her teachers’ email to realize she was having difficulties. We email and talked to her teacher via telephone and worked together to resolve the issue.

I felt like such a terrible mom for not being a better role model. I was disappointed in myself for losing my temper. I know that in the midst of my anger I felt the hand of God on me – an inner voice telling me to stop. With tears in my eyes, I held my daughter and told her how much I love her. “I am sorry”, I sobbed.

It’s been a few days since this incident, and I am thankful for the power of God. Through His Holy Spirit, He guides me to reflect, and hence have a deeper understanding of who I am – my shortcomings, and, of forgiveness.

As I was walking the dog this morning, I also thought about the power of love which resides within. There was a beauty this morning as I walked Candy. The sun is bright as winter turns into a nippy spring. There are buds sprouting on bare trees, and it is a wonderment to feel His amazing grace in all around. I thank God for opening my eyes and heart. To see and feel His living creation. There is an understanding that it is only through the living power of the Holy Spirit I have joy and peace.

Moments such as these are Gods’ hands in our lives as He awakens us from our slumber. He wants us to see the beauty beyond the negative emotions and bad deeds of this world. It is Christ living in us through the power of the Holy Spirit:

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

Despite the challenges, disappointments, pain and all the negative that can befall, I need to remember – through God we received joy! Through God we receive peace! Through God, I have the life energy of the Holy Spirit.

I pray that Aleeza, Mathieu, Daniel each receive the power of the Holy Spirit and be energized.

I pray all those around me – my extended family, friends and colleagues, are filled with the Holy Spirit and live with joy! I pray they have peace within their hearts and be energized!

I pray that those in my great community, and my readers feel the blessings of the Holy Spirit as they walk in Christ Jesus and be energized!

Joy and peace in the Holy Spirit!


With Gratitude

I wanted to take time today to give gratitude to those working in the frontline of the COVID-19 pandemic. As part of our essential services, they go to work each day. I wanted to give thanks and praise to the doctors, nurses, police, firefighters and the many others working as the rest of us are in imposed quarantine.

I want to also give a shout out to my husband, my neighbour Carol and her husband. They are working as well!

When I voiced my concerns to Carol on the lacked both mask and gloves in her hospital, she bubbly declared, “Don’t worry, God is taking care of us”.


Carols’ uplifting message reminds us to place our trust in God. It reminds us to let go of our (my) anxieties and trust that God is watching out for all believers.

I just love the way God puts people in our lives. He is truly a living God who loves us.

I know my husband has been called in to work double shifts without complaints. This means a high level of hygiene as his work clothes are washed daily along with a number of disinfecting protocols at home. The rest of us are self quarantined and keeping productive with online studies and work from home.

💕With a gracious heart , thank you God for the people in our lives💕

I know he doesn’t voice it, but I know his heart also trusts God.

I thank God for His immense grace and love:

Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22 KJV

God asks us to give him all our burdens and anxieties. He wants to hear them and take them from us! He wants to shoulder our fears. His grace through the crucifixion of Jesus expresses His immense love for us. He will strengthen us.

Thank you Jesus. I pray during this Holy Week our hearts and minds are opened to your grace and love. I pray you help us take the time to reflect on your hands in our lives, and that I continue to see and feel your presence in a world gone crazy with pandemic fever. Through your Grace, I have the strength to let go of my fears and anxieties. Let me give gratitude for the people you put in my life! Praise be to The Father, Son and Holy Spirit! Amen. 💕

Palm Sunday

2019 Easter dinner
Every year Easter was a time we got together with my husband’s family. It was a festive occasion with lots of home cooked goodies, and chocolate for the children.
This year we will celebrate Easter with just the four of us and our online Christian community.

I remember one Sunday when my children were young, we celebrated Palm Sunday with palm leaves. This year all church communities across Canada cannot gather together to rejoice – Jesus is King!

Before we went to bed the night before, I watched with my daughter a post from the 180 Church Kid Zone Ministry:

Palm Sunday story with Paster Dom

There is also a cute and short animation for younger children by Crossroads Kids’ Club:

God’s Story: Palm Sunday

For older teens, there is What’s the Significance of a Triumphant Entry. This video is by Got Questions Ministries. It explore Palm Sunday with more depth.

I’m excited to tune in online today to worship and remember Christ’s triumphant entry into Jerusalem. Even though I am isolated in my home, I look forward to logging online at 9:30. Government laws and the world gone crazy with COVID-19 will not be an obstacle to worship.

Tune in with me at 9:30 am for the 180 Live Church.

Or at 10:30 and 11:30 for the live broadcast from: https://elevationchurch.org/online/

Let us get together and rejoice in Christ Jesus.

God Bless❤️

Jesus is King

Time has past so quickly since Christmas, and it’s hard to believe so much has happened since Chinese New Year.

Since the beginning of my province and nation wide self quarantine at home, we have been taking it one day at a time. I’ve been working from home, and other than reading, catching up on some C drama, I’ve been basically cleaning and working from home.

Working from home I’ve lost track of the time and often work late into the night. Multitasking with my iPhone, iPad and computer. I am really embarrassed to admit it.

Today I took a break! My kids took a break today from their online courses. I also chilled today. Today was the first time in weeks I turned off my computer, tuned out off the news, and relaxed. I took time to cook up a healthy broth for Japanese Ramen.

Saturday 😀

I’ve been also thinking of God a lot. I feel the need to talk about him, and share His story. I also feel we (Christians) are being forced to explore new mediums by which to witness for Jesus.

This is the first time in our generation where we won’t be celebrating Passover or Easter in a Church. Not only that, given some restrictions on how many can gather, it’s the first time when Christians can’t worship together in home churches. The no more than 5 rule applies due to self quarantine.

I’ll be celebrating Passover online tomorrow. There are a few choices. One of the ones I like, and appeals to my children is Elevation Church in Toronto. Here is their site:


We went to their Christmas Service when we were visiting Toronto. What appealed to me was their use of interactive multimedia. Their spunky down to earth Christian message along with loud music, and interactive videos is something my kids can relate to. A bit too noisy for me, but for my children weaned on technology – if they can hear God’s word in all that white noise, then that’s fine with me.

I still can’t figure out how my kids can study while listening to music, face timing, reading while also on their laptop and phone. Oh, I just realized I do the same minus the music😂

Many churches like the 180 Church in my community are now are forced to use other mediums to communicate with their congregations. Using YouTube is one of the cheaper options for churches with less finances. Local churches like these are facing challenges. I pray they can weather the COVID-19 Pandemic. Check out Paster Dom’s Palm Sunday story: https://youtu.be/KXYzOpkys_M

Mega churches with operating cost like North Point Community Church and it’s sister congregations in Canada reach a wider audience.

There is also Judah Smith and his organization with a downloadable apps : https://churchome.org.

I’m not advocating one church over another. I’m just naming some very different ones that people can access online. For dispensationalist look at Gods words: https://www.bbcenglish.org

Let’s support one of of the online churches as we celebrate Palm Sunday tomorrow and Easter next week. Let us not despair and know that God has His hands on His Church and all Christians. Let us all read the Bible and reflect on the meaning of Palm Sunday.

For me Palm Sunday is a special event. In it we celebrated Jesus as king as we remember him entering the city of Jerusalem on a donkey as people lay down palm leaves. (Matthew 21:1-11). The beginning of the journey to Christ’s crucifixion.

As a child of God there is great joy as we proclaim Jesus as King. But there is great sadness for me as I recall the fickleness of our human heart. His journey there after also looks into our hearts – as it explores many facets of our humanness.

I’ll will explore Jesus’ journey this week up until the day of His crucifixion. For today and tomorrow I will reflect of His journey into Jerusalem. I pray for all Christians to arise and bellow out – Jesus is King!

Let us all take the time to go online and worship the word of God❤️

Thank God For Kids

But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 19:14 | KJV

Your unending love pouring down on me…Daniel and I adopted our two children when they were infants. We were in our 40s. We were not sure about starting a family after 20 years together – the thought of being parents so late in our lives was life changing and daunting! We put our faith and trust in God’s hand, and with a prayerful heart we waited.

I kept a prayer journal during this process. Reading it recently I can honestly say I am embarrassed by the nagging, pestering, and whining – what a pain the the neck I must have sound. I was like the many women in the Bible who didn’t trust God’s plan. Like Eve, Sarah, Hagar, Job’s wife and many others in the BIBLE…our insecurities abound. Doubtful and sometimes mournful:

“Then the Lord said to Abraham, ‘Why did Sarah laugh? Why did she say, ‘Can an old woman like me have a baby?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return about this time next year, and Sarah will have a son,’” (Genesis 18:13-14).

God answers prayers!

As undeserving and as imperfect I was and am – I am thankful!

My promise to God was to bring them up in Christ Jesus. This itself was and is a proven challenge especially our world today. Children meander in a very different world! Their grasp and in your face technology is not to be ignored. As a mom, I’ve embraced this technology to communicate with them. From finding the right Christian atmosphere, to looking for ways to share with my children God’s teachings has been nothing short of challenging!

My gift to my children is this blog. Here I can share with them. I can share some insights about being a mom, along with the living testament of an extremely flawed individual. I can also share the story of my Salvation through the blood of Jesus.

Praise be to God!

Believe it or not this is how I share with them Jesus’ story, and how my life has been impacted by Him.

Every blog post is sent to my children. They read it and in some cases they tell me what typo or grammatical errors I’ve made.

Aleeza was actually insulted I use MeiMei when I refer to her. I told her it was a security precaution, but she wanted me to use her real name ^_^


…was the Western name we gave – Aliza – was chosen for its’ Hebrew roots. It means “great happiness” and “joy”. Her name is a living testimony of Gods hands in our lives – “great happiness” and “joy”. Hmm, not mentioned there is and will be challenges that comes with being parents. Different age = different issues! The journey is never ending!


…is the French version from the first book of the New Testament- Matthew. Also with a history that stems back to the Hebrew and the Old Testament – Gift of God:

(Mattityahu)meaning “gift of YAHWEH“, from the roots מַתָּן (mattan)meaning “gift” and יָה (yah) referring to the Hebrew God. Matthew, also called Levi, was one of the twelve apostles. He was a tax collector, and supposedly the author of the first gospel in the New Testament. The name appears in the Old Testament as Mattithiah.

Jesus loves the little children,
All the children of the world.
Red, and yellow, black, and white,
They are precious in His sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world.

Time passes quickly and in a blink of an eye he is a young man. I miss those days when he was a toddler. A young adult – my husband and I encourage him to be autonomous, to make proactive decisions about his goals and walk in life. I pray God walks with him.


This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
This little light of mine
I’m going to let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine
To show my love

Everywhere I go, I’m gonna let it shine [x3]
I let it shine to show my love

Even in my home, I’m gonna let is shine
I let is shine to show my love

When I see my neighbor coming
I’m gonna let it shine


We can never give up. Through prayer and walking (sometimes meandering) with the Jesus, I can only hope my children will come to love Him as much as I do.


Music For The Soul

Toronto with Matt and MeiMei aka Aleeza

While wearing the mom mask, a question which continuously haunts me is, “What kind of legacy will I leave my children?” This thought is even more prevalent today as I look around me – a world in COVID-19 pandemic overdrive.

When I’m dead and gone, what will they remember about me? Do I dare tell them of my many zany stories walking from the left to the right, or of the anguished walks that were oftentimes spiritually rocky? They are my stories of a living God, of a guiding hand, and of a healer.

Who am I? It’s not because of who I am, it’s because of who YOU are, that I can look in the mirror and know who I am. From forever questioning, and finally finding the living hope in Him – Jesus. Out of my angst there is only Him – my Saviour.

When I think about my life, I think of God’s amazing grace. His hands time and time again guiding me back into his embrace – His mercy and unending love abound.

Hence, the one precious thing I want to leave my children when I am dead and gone is my immense love for my Saviour – Jesus. I want to tell them of His love for me and you.

I want my children to know Him more.

I want my children to love Him, to trust Him, and depend on Him as I do!

This compilation of songs is for me, you, us. They are music for the soul. May each of us discover the precious presence of Jesus, and God’s deep love for me, you, us🌷

I love you – Aleeza and Matt❤️here is my compilation of my favourite music for you: