I have to say that sometimes (ok, most of the time) it’s a struggle between my will (me) and God’s will. My path seems easy and mapped out. God’s route takes time and effort, nor do I know where the Holy Spirit will take me:
8 The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”
John 3:8 NRSVCE
The spiritual road travelled is littered with life challenges – it is through them that we can grow in leaps and bound. A part of that growth process is learning to discern between consolation and desolation. That is distinguishing if it’s from God or Satan. I have to admit this is a life long process of being mindfully alert and Jesus centred.
So often I do something thinking it’s God’s will only to realize the evil one has slid in and before I know it, I’m feeling stressed, overloaded and burdened. I piled upon myself all these to do activities thinking it will develop my spirituality only to realize they end up distracting me from focusing on Jesus. Satan has inadvertently slithered in. Yup, my lack of discernment.
These past few weeks, I have learnt exactly that – Trust God, keep my focus on Jesus, and silent time to hear the Holy Spirit. It is easy to fall on the wayside without realizing it. That’s when I find it necessary to shift my focus back to Jesus.
This past few weeks, so many around me are going through life (filled) challenges. Many are in a “clinical” depression, sad, or anxious. There are a few friends going through cancer treatments. For some, they cannot see the light and cannot grasp the inner joy within. I lack words of comfort.
For many their darkness stems from not only the death of those close to them, but from the dark cloak of secularism which has taken away their soul and replacing it with shallow emotionalism. Where has their inner joy, peace and love gone?
A young friend just lost her mom and bestie, and she asked me why she is being punished. “Where is God?” “God doesn’t exist!” She is not the only friend who has experienced the death of love ones. I can only listen and silently pray in my heart for them.
There is another recovering from addiction, and sometimes the pain is so bad she has strayed away from her program – “falling off the wagon.”
I recall Father D. Callaway, MIC once saying that therapy without healing the soul (spiritual) is ineffective. The mind and body may get better, but the spirit is weak and often times they fall back into their addiction.
How do I proactively help them? Yes, I try to listen mindfully without opening my big mouth. I give a hug. I also say a silent prayer for them asking for the light of Jesus to touch their souls. I pray for their healing, or I send them prayers to pray.
When someone is ill, praying is the last thing on their mind. When in a depression, it’s difficult to see the light. When someone is going through the pain of lost, no words can comfort. That’s why it’s up to us to pray for their healing, pray a rosary, or light a candle, or offer a mass on their behalf, and above all something I have learnt of late – to listen mindfully. With Jesus in us, this is what we are called to do.
Going through the “dark night of the soul” is real. It is also a process of drawing one nearer to God. There is a light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. God is ever loving and merciful – He waits to hear from us. He waits for us to seek him to help us go through the “dark night of the soul”.
He welcomes our prays for the other.
There is also the freedom to choose. God also wants us – sick, depressed and going through life challenges – to seek him freely.
God also seeks for those in need to seek him from where they are at in their life’s journey. Following Father Mike today – Day 8 helped me understand this more fully: https://youtu.be/m6f2J4Cr3Ps
God Bless all those going through trials, illness, depression, and lost of love ones. Those of us in the faith, let us pray, pray, and pray for them. We can pray the Rosary 📿, light a candle at church, offer a mass. 🙏💕
Note: Forgive me for doing injustice to Saint John of the cross and his “dark night of the soul”. There is a multi-fold meaning to his work, and I do him a great injustice by the flippant and generalized way I am appropriating his phrase.
Wishing all a Happy New Year! A new beginning for all of us to celebrate the love of our God and rejoice in Jesus. As we approach a new year and strive to walk closer to God, we are blessed with the knowledge that yes, we may muck up, but are thankful that the Jesus in us will lift us up.
January 1 is the Octave Day of Christmas
The Solemnity of the Blessed Virgin Mary
The shepherds went in haste to Bethlehem and found Mary and Joseph, and the infant lying in the manger. When they saw this, they made known the message that had been told them about this child. All who heard it were amazed by what had been told them by the shepherds. And Mary kept all these things, reflecting on them in her heart. Then the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, just as it had been told to them.
When eight days were completed for his circumcision, he was named Jesus, the name given him by the angel before he was conceived in the womb.
New Year To Do:
An idea for the start of the new year is listening to the Catechism in a Yearwith Father Mike
I have been spending the pass few days with my family in Toronto with whom I haven’t seen since the onset of Covid – yup 3 years. Praise be to God for the opportunity to share, rejoice and share in God’s love.
It’s been a blessing to spend time with each of my siblings and their families. Although 3 years of Covid restrictions were at times challenging – in afterthought the time pass quickly – in a blink of an eye – all the kids have grown up. Thank you to the triune, all the angels and saints for their cloak of protection.
May God’s Blessings follow each of you in your daily walk 🙏💕
I returned to work today after a long sojourn, and the best part of my day was going to Mary Queen of the World Cathedral to pray and attend the 7:30 am mass.
A wonderful way to start my day as I return to the hectic world of teaching young children. A lot has changed within me the last few years, but the world and the job all remains the same. The staff changes and children changes throughout the years, but the same hectic reality remains the same.
I have changed. My faith has deepened and for those of us who walk in Jesus:
“Three things are necessary to everyone: truth of faith which brings understanding, love of Christ which brings compassion, and endurance of hope which brings perseverance.”
White noise here, there and everywhere! We are always surrounded by sound – the outside noise of motor vehicles (I live near an autoroute and main road) to the inside background sound of the television my husband has turned up (he has bad hearing). When I sit outside, I hear my neighbour’s talking or mowing the lawn. Sometimes I hear a tweet of a bird.
Noise! I realized this last week while I was listening to my music is everywhere. My music was blaring to drown out the background music at the gym.
The crazy thing is we often layer the annoying noise around us with other sounds more favourable to our own musical interest. I notice my own kids watching shows, movies, or listening to music on their mobiles. Their earbuds on high to drown out the noise around them. So on the one hand there is background noise, and on the other my kids have own own music or sounds to drown out noise – which makes talking to them a strain on my vocal cords!
Wow, so when do I have that silent moment to hear God’s whisper. I don’t, I have started to tune out white noise and not layer it so that I can hear him. This is often early in the morning and later in the evening when there is a wonderful silence with just me and God. Yes, I had to work my schedule around all the noise around me, because I want to sit with God quietly.
In the past I would share this quiet time (5:30 – 7:00am) time with caring for my sick dog Candy. It was a time for me to take care of her during her last days with us (she was afflicted with muscle paralysis), and then spend the rest of my morning in quiet time with God. Since Candy has passed away, I maintained this early morning schedule as my time to pray the rosary and orient my day God’s ward.
It is in the silence of our prayers that sometimes there are images, flowing thoughts, as well as the peace of God which embraces us. I call these God’s whispers. Once our day is directed towards God, we can feel the plenty of his boundless graces in our lives, as well as his presence. Even reading scripture bring new insights in our own lives.
I often hear people say they don’t have time for prayer or Jesus. How does one find time? Well, time doesn’t magically appear. It demands action and commitment on our part to invite Jesus in. It takes action on our part to know Jesus more, love him more, and to follow our beloved Christ more closely. It also includes the decision to keep Jesus at the centre of our lives. The rest of the work is done by the Holy Spirit.
A must watch into the heart and soul of one of the most iconic thinkers in our world today. He and Jordan Peterson’s recent return and conversion shows first hand God’s amazing grace and divine mercy at work.
Please take the time to watch both parts, as they are an insightful look into God’s hand in a life of a sinner (which we are all too!), and the transformation that comes with seeking to live God’s divine will. Milo Yiannopoulos is both sincere, funny and insightfully reflective as he tells his story.
Part 1 o Milo Yiannopoulos speech.
Part 2 of of Milo Yiannopoulos speech.
God Bless 💖
Aside: All of us have a unique and personal story to tell of our conversion or coming to faith in the Triune. They represent the beauty of God calling to us. Our coming to faith fills that empty hole created by the sins of our first parents. For since the creation of mankind, we were meant to be in relationship with God. God’s love for us in becoming man through Jesus is a testament of His love for us. Jesus defeated death so that we may be set free from our sins.
Praise be to The Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit 🙏
I woke up at 2:00 am and felt moved to post two traditions prayers for the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Why? Well, in my reading (and rereading) of Pope Francis’ Prayer of Consecration to the Immaculate Heart of Our Holy Mother, I found it not only wordy, and somewhat meandering – but, not to the point until the end. Also certain use of pagan imagery (“land in the sky”) didn’t sit well with me. “Queen of the Human Family” is another.
Another good friend of mine felt the same way. In her words, “a lot can be hidden in a text.” We both had our reservations about the text. After a sleepless night, I asked for God’s guidance. What came to mind was, “What would Jesus say?” I also ask each of us discern. In response to my question, I will share 2 traditional prayers – If you decide to pray one of these, add the intention of consecration for Russia and the Ukraine.
Here is a prayer I have decided to pray in lieu of Pope Francis’ wordy prayer. To pray with holy and pure intent to the Immaculate Heart of Mary:
A Solemn Act of Consecration to the Immaculate Heart of Mary
Author: Venerable Pope Pius XII
Most Holy Virgin Mary, tender Mother of men, to fulfill the desires of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the request of the Vicar of Your Son on earth, we consecrate ourselves and our families to your Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart, O Queen of the Most Holy Rosary, and we recommend to You, all the people of our country and all the world.
Please accept our consecration, dearest Mother, and use us as You wish to accomplish Your designs in the world.
O Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart of Mary, Queen of the Most Holy Rosary, and Queen of the World, rule over us, together with the Sacred Heart of Jesus Christ, Our King. Save us from the spreading flood of modern paganism; kindle in our hearts and homes the love of purity, the practice of a virtuous life, an ardent zeal for souls, and a desire to pray the Rosary more faithfully.
We come with confidence to You, O Throne of Grace and Mother of Fair Love. Inflame us with the same Divine Fire which has inflamed Your own Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart. Make our hearts and homes Your shrine, and through us, make the Heart of Jesus, together with your rule, triumph in every heart and home.
Act of Consecration to the Immaculate Heart of Mary
O Mary, Virgin most powerful and Mother of Mercy, Queen of Heaven and Refuge of Sinners, we consecrate ourselves to thy Immaculate Heart. We consecrate to thee our very being and our whole life: all that we have, all that we love, all that we are. To thee we give our bodies, our hearts, and our souls; to thee we give our homes, our families and our country. We desire that all that is in us and around us may belong to thee and may share in the benefits of thy motherly blessing. And, that this act of consecration may be truly fruitful and lasting, we renew this day at thy feet the promises of our Baptism and our First Holy Communion. We pledge ourselves to profess courageously and at all times the truths of our holy Faith, and to live as befits Catholics, who are submissive to all directions of the Pope and the bishops in communion with him. We pledge ourselves to keep the Commandments of God and His Church, in particular to keep holy the Lord’s Day. We pledge ourselves to make the consoling practices of the Christian religion, and above all, Holy Communion, an important part of our lives, in so far as we shall be able to do. Finally, we promise thee, O glorious Mother of God and loving Mother of men, to devote ourselves wholeheartedly to the spreading of devotion to thy Immaculate Heart, in order to hasten and assure, through the queenly rule of thy Immaculate Heart, the coming of the kingdom of the Sacred Heart of thy adorable Son, in our own hearts and in those of all men, in our country, and in all the world, as in Heaven, so on earth. Amen.
The past week has been like an emotional roller coaster ride – my mind, body and soul suffering a sense of disconnection. My body, mind and heart unable to process and grapple with the state of our world – the reality and the possibility of doom. My heart and body felt anxious and restless as I contemplated the outbreak of war – the events in the Ukraine exploded just as in Canada and other parts of the world are still dealing with the consequences of Covid mandates. In Canada, we were still coming to terms with issues of freedom. There is also the threat of China invading Taiwan.
I felt the hand of Satan stroking the fire and manipulating the powers that be, where innocent people are sandwiched between two evils. I understand that things must play out according to God’s plan – we are in a spiritual war. God has given each of us the freedom to chose. Some chose Satan while others chose God.
I recall when Jesus was in the wilderness for 40 days, and Satan offered Him wealth, prestige, and a kingdom:
8 Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor; 9 and he said to him, “All these I will give you, if you will fall down and worship me.” 10 Jesus said to him, “Away with you, Satan! for it is written, Worship the Lord your God, and serve only him.” Matthew 4:8-10
To chose that which is good and respectful of the dignity of mankind is also a choice. Sometimes what is thought to be for the good is a subjective perception – just saying – it is a selfish subjective truth that is not God’s righteousness and truth.
I spent the past week getting myself out of despair – my inner demons. With it also came the insightful reality that dwelling on all this is not conducive to the soul. In fact it takes me away from focusing on God.
I realize that to live in this world, having God with me is the only way to live. More importantly, it is to trust only in Him. God has the whole world in His hands:
12 Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand and marked off the heavens with a span, enclosed the dust of the earth in a measure, and weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance? Isaiah 40:12
God Bless and let us rejoice in living with Jesus💖